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Post by biancamikaila on Mar 17, 2022 10:46:50 GMT -5
hello i am bianca! will introduce myself more in-depth soon when i am not poopoo brain…just needed to braindump this
i’ve been studying a lot of spirituality x religion stuff lately (i should prob make another thread to talk abt this!)…and one thing it’s rlly helped me w is being at peace w/ myself…accepting what life gives me…
for example, i’ve been struggling with creative frustration this whole quarter…i wanted to get into more artsy crafts like illustration, gamedev, etc…and emulate those cool artists who’d join exhibits and fellowships and have their own statements…IDK I JUST FIND IT SO COOL TO DEVELOP UR OWN WORK…and have ppl like u bc of how u are…unlike in other fields like design where u usually have to adapt to cough cough the user’s needs…however no matter how much i wanted to start pursuing this it was like life didn’t want it to happen lel (e.g. got rejected for scholarship on intro 2 gamedev course, been avoiding finishing a comm for my friend for months)….
what helped me deal w this was accepting that perhaps this dream of mine is not meant to happen…yet. Maybe because it’s best for me to prioritize depth over breadth atm!!! Less likely to burnout. But no now doesn’t mean no forever! I trust in the plan of the universe. besides, I realized that I’ve been living like an artist anyways, and it shows in all the passions I pursue, whether it’s design or dance :> (wait this was inspired by a molly mielke tweet i will look for it)
do u guys feel like u live like artists….lmk
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Post by biancamikaila on Mar 17, 2022 10:48:46 GMT -5
yeah this
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Post by biancamikaila on Mar 17, 2022 10:53:27 GMT -5
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Post by cirrus on Mar 17, 2022 12:35:27 GMT -5
hello i am bianca! will introduce myself more in-depth soon when i am not poopoo brain…just needed to braindump this i’ve been studying a lot of spirituality x religion stuff lately (i should prob make another thread to talk abt this!)…and one thing it’s rlly helped me w is being at peace w/ myself…accepting what life gives me… for example, i’ve been struggling with creative frustration this whole quarter…i wanted to get into more artsy crafts like illustration, gamedev, etc…and emulate those cool artists who’d join exhibits and fellowships and have their own statements…IDK I JUST FIND IT SO COOL TO DEVELOP UR OWN WORK…and have ppl like u bc of how u are…unlike in other fields like design where u usually have to adapt to cough cough the user’s needs…however no matter how much i wanted to start pursuing this it was like life didn’t want it to happen lel (e.g. got rejected for scholarship on intro 2 gamedev course, been avoiding finishing a comm for my friend for months)…. what helped me deal w this was accepting that perhaps this dream of mine is not meant to happen…yet. Maybe because it’s best for me to prioritize depth over breadth atm!!! Less likely to burnout. But no now doesn’t mean no forever! I trust in the plan of the universe. besides, I realized that I’ve been living like an artist anyways, and it shows in all the passions I pursue, whether it’s design or dance :> (wait this was inspired by a molly mielke tweet i will look for it) do u guys feel like u live like artists….lmk hello bianca!! i love your thoughts on spirituality & religion (and im so happy youre taking a great course on it) and i think that is a fantastic thread idea. much to speak on it i'm curious as to why the models of grants, fellowships, etc. resonate with you more than other pathways! i've spoken to you on this a bit before, but i've been thinking about submitting my work to publications and exhibits. i took all my work away from the internet and then no one could find me and all the links broke. i wonder if exhibitions (whether temporary or permanent) would give my work a better place; as my body of work grows the more maintenance work becomes a bit grueling... i also enjoy the sense of community that these spaces can give, the celebratory aspect of exhibits (i'm not a huge fan of making a big deal out of my work, but i want to gather and dwell on things more), and a more intentional thematic connectedness. i also used to not understand the idea of submitting abstracts to random prompts (say, in written pieces) because i always knew what i wanted to write about; but now this format makes more sense to me. working with great exhibits/journals is about having a careful collaborative partner. i'm not sure how i feel about grants/fellowships yet, even if i've participated in some. i'm wondering how sustainable it is. i think i want to step back and assess what works for me. i like the idea of carefully-directed residencies. im not sure why i like it yet, and want to figure that out before i dive deeper.
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Post by biancamikaila on Mar 17, 2022 20:08:39 GMT -5
hi chia! tysm for engaging w me thoughtfully <3
“sense of community…having a great collaborative partner…”
I LOVE THESE…it’s the relationships that truly matter… i guess grants & fellowships resonate w me the most bc i like how they’re all abt ppl personally investing their time, energy, money, etc in you…i see the former is the more individual? version of this while the latter is more communityish
the best teachers i’ve had in my life were the ones who really paid attention to me :,) bc of this they were able to give me the best feedback that helped me grow! so same applies to art stuff…i realized that I suck at learning stuff on my own…rlly need structure for accountability & feedback
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